For as long as I can remember, my DREAM has been to be an interior designer. As a little girl I use to play for hours and hours with my doll house, rearranging and redecorating all the rooms in the tiny house ... actually enjoying all the furniture pieces and accessories more than the dolls themselves. When I was in high school my parents remodeled their home ... and when I say they remodeled it I mean they took off the entire main floor of the house and rebuilt it! I.LOVED.IT! I mean having to move out of our house during construction certainly wasn't fun. We lived temporarily on a house boat, which we all thought was a brilliant plan at first and sounded more like a "stay-cation" than real living. However, it didn't take long to realize that it wasn't what it was all cracked up to be (MORE bugs during the summer, treacherous freezing conditions in the winter) and by the time we were scheduled to move back into our home it could not come a moment too soon! But the process of designing the remodel ... I was IN HEAVEN! The poor contractors on the other hand were not! I was the kid constantly standing over their shoulders watching every step and continually asking questions about "why ...", and "what if ...", and "could we ...". Yup, I was totally annoying!!! But all of those questions, all of that watching and seeking to understand everything ... it fueled a fire inside me!
I always get asked the question, "if this has been a passion for you for so long why didn't you study interior design in college?" The truth is, I wanted to. But after shadowing a local, prominent architect I basically got scared out of my dream for fear that I wasn't good enough at math to be successful in the industry. Fast forward to current day, and I now know that isn't true, but that nagging fear of failure that has always plagued me, and honestly continues to today, won out when I was younger. Truthfully, I am glad that fear won out ... and here is why. I believe fully that everything in life happens for a reason. If I had decided to study interior design or architecture in college, I wouldn't have gone to the school I did. And if I hadn't gone to the University I attended, I wouldn't have met my husband. And if I hadn't met my husband, I wouldn't be mom to my amazingly wonderful twins. A good reminder to have faith!
My family is my entire world! I love my husband and my kids more than words can accurately describe and I have been incredibly blessed to have spent the last six years at home with my kids. While the days have certainly been long, the years have been so so short (as my wonderful friend Sour Jones always says!). I also feel incredibly blessed to have their love and support for my new adventure as interior designer! My amazing husband is so talented, so smart, and SO LOVING, and he gives EVERYTHING to the kids and I! He challenges me to be better, to learn more, to try harder, to make each day productive and successful; which in the moment might be slightly (or maybe a lot!) more frustrating than when he just shares accolades, but if I am being completely honest I am so grateful that he does push me because I wouldn't be where I am today without him! The twins have completely blown me away in their reactions and their support for mommy going back to school and starting my own company. The additional time away from them has been hard and we did have to make family schedule adjustments, but once they got the new rhythm they have been nothing but supportive and excited for me. J the other day came up to me, etcha-sketch in hand, and said "here mommy, this is a design that you can use for one of your clients"! (How cute is that!) And T is constantly telling people "my mommy is an interior designer and she helps people make their homes beautiful"! I may not need to bother with additional marketing she is so darn cute! Any mom can tell you that you don't ALWAYS feel love in return from your kids, not every moment of every day. But those moments where the twins are clearly so excited for me ... I feel so much love in those moments and it FUELS me! It drives me to show them that we (in particular women, but certainly not leaving the men out of this) can be both loving and present parents as well as successful professionals. We can have our kids be the center of our world, and fulfill our dreams as independent adults. We can balance it all ... maybe not perfectly every moment of every day ... but there is grace in that imperfection. And no matter what, at the end of the day, we are going through all those moments together and with love and compassion for each other.
Thank you ... for giving some of your time to reading this blog, for the honor of helping you with your homes, for sharing in the adventure of finding my voice both online and in my design projects, and for being there with me as I walk down this exciting (and a bit scary) new path of pursuing a dream I have had for so long! I hope that inspiration is found on the pages ahead! And maybe, someday you can find my work featured in the glossy pages of a magazine or bound in a stunning book. A girl can dream right!